Confuse...

Life is always not we expect, have you ever experience getting a job that you didn’t even expect you’ll get? Or a present that you always thought that your friends will give you for your birthday because they know that you like it and got the other?

Life is full of mystery and undoubtedly surprising in its own way. A mystery that people tries to understand from generation to generation and yet still nobody can explain it fully. Personally I’ve been trying to understand it for the past years of my life. I want to understand why disappointment, anger, happiness and hope etc, all this emotions where they coming from??? An why do they exist?

I’m 23years old and still confuse of what my life’s going to be 10yrs or 20yrs from now. Trying to make sense of the things that I’m doing now, asking myself over and over again is this what I really want? Or is this another waste of time. Its like no matter how hard I ask myself “what I want” I always end up with no answer not even a bit of idea. I thought of going for a vacation, just to isolate myself from everybody and try to find the missing piece of myself. I guess finding myself is the most difficult thing that I’ve faced In my life, not having to know where to go and even where I want to go is something that drives me crazy… Maybe tomorrow or next week or probably next year who knows when Ill find myself and maybe… just maybe I can rest and be contented…